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If you’re going to dream, you may as well dream big. The bigger your dream, the more excited and motivated you will be to actually begin on the road to reaching it. An exciting dream motivates us and keeps us going when things get difficult. If you always have that dream in mind, everything you do will take you closer to your goal.

Keep faith in what you dreaming about.

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aiiii …. js now i hit plp car … sien lah … damn car … can’t break … i press the break but fuck that damn car dun wan to stop … then hit infront car lah … luckly tat guy did’t score me like hell … he only say why i drive so fast and why i did’t press the break … wah so terrible …. wat i angry is, i tell my colleague tat car’s break did’t work well … but nobody believe me …. they think i purpose create this story or i blame the car’s break to cover my mistake …. until now i still "chuak" … 1st time involved in car accident …. really bad day …. maybe i need to pay Rm2000 ++ to repair company car n tat person car …. aiiii … i where got so many money to pay ???? damn it ….

_today i go Lim Kok Wing University, their uni very large n clean compare to TAR college. Somemore their computer lab can play game … wah so fun inside their computer lab. surf net also very fast, play game also smooth, compare to TAR college …. aiiiiiii ….. play normally game also can’t so sien …. inside Lim Kok Wing i got see some student versus DOTA … damn fun ….. somemore u can’t see single fly in Lim Kok Wing Uni, their restaurant very clean …. compare to TAR college …. aiiiii ….. u know TAR college famous v wat ????? when u eat the fly accompany u …. somemore got bird fly there n here … very dirty ….. when u go TAR college canteen, look like u go jungle or kampung eat ….

somemore in Lim kok wing uni u can see lot not malaysian plp there … really can’t imaging wat the feeling when study v foreign country plp …. hahaha ……

hahaha finally after 4 years i can graduate v diploma cert …. actually last year i can graduate but because of i want graduate v my housemate and wan enjoy college’s life … then i choose to graduate this year … but i choose correct decision cos this year the gown very nice n beautiful compare to year before …. this year got hood and mortar board … hehehe … i dun need go degree liao … cos diploma also can wear mortar board … really special … so happy …. somemore yesterday in ntv7 can see myface on tv cos they got show the convo’s ceremonial ….

after i read His Word, i just reliased few thing … actually God use our daily life to teach us and bring us closer to Him … actually i can learn few thing regarding my nighmare in KL … actually i got buy map and i have it beside me … but i never took it and look or find way how to go back … i just follow the sign board .. so i lost because i follow signboard and not the map beside me … so in our life we need to read the bible cos bible can lead us closer to Him and show us the truth … but normally we choose to depend on people or ourself more than His word or God … then what is the result ???? we get lost …. same thing happen to me … if i take time to see the map beside then i would lost … sometime people will lead us to wrong direction, so we must depend more to God other than human or ourself … so next time i must follow the map rather the signboard … after that thing happen i really don’t believe Malaysia’s signboard … hehehe ….

how i find my way go back to Ampang ??? actually after i drive more than 3 hours in KL i really tired and i pray inside my heart and ask God to show me way go back to Ampang … but God did’t answer my pray .. then i realise that i lost to far liao …. then with desperate i shout to God, ask Him to show me way home.. cos i really tired … then you know wat happen ??? God immediately show me the way … and i follow that way … no turning left or right … js follow the ways then i manage to go back home safely … when we pray, we must have desperate heart … cos after that God sure will show the way …. i already experience that … it’s up to you whether want to believe o not …. normally i pray inside my heart … but the answer come very late or some time God did’t answer my pray …. then starting today i will pray to Him with desperate heart …

oh God thank you for all You have done in my life, sorry for always disappointed You … starting today i will read continue read Your Word … let Your Word spoke to me oh Lord …. let me depend more of You .. i don’t depent on myself cos mt life really lost now … i really don’t want to do what now Lord … Please bring me closer to You Lord …

wah yesterday really is a nightmate for me cos i lost in KL …. fuck … i wan go SS2 … but i dunno drive to Wangsa maju, then turn to PJ, from PJ i lost … then turn to KL … form KL dunno go where … turn alot place then after 4 hours i just manage to go SS2 … fuck … the time i reach my customer place … she very angry and ask me to take back all my thing …. wah fuck her … then the time i wan go back to Amapng i lost again …. fuck wan go Ampang … i don’t turn to Kajang … fuck KL signboard really can’t believe … somemore the sign board ll make you lost ….

today even worst … fucker … i go federal highway … then halfway kena saman … the fucking policeman say i speed … he say i drive more than 80km/h … who the hell know highway can’t drive more than 80 ??? fuck i wan overtake car sure i need more than 80km/h to ever take car, right ??? somemore i did’t see any sign board say i need to drive 80km/h ….. fuck fuck … that policeman even worst … fucking hell … he direct ask me berapa nak bagi ???? then i say i only got RM20 … you know what that fucking police say ?? he say if i give RM20 then he direct open saman for me and i need to pay RM300 and go mahkamah and so on … because of i wan hurry deliver my thing and i do’t be late … then i direct ask him how much you wan ??? you know what he say ??? he say if i give RM 50 then he did’t open saman …. he say i only got 2 choice … one is pay RM50 and can go immediately or i need to pay RM300 and go mahkamah … fuck the policeman …. really fuck him … because of i wan hurry then i pay RM 50 for stupid policeman ….. fuck fuck

really KL is suck … yesterday i waste more than RM 10 for tol …. really a waste … somemore petrol … i waste RM 50 for petrol … somemore today waste RM 50 for stupid saman …. really suck ….

1st time dive car in KL i lost 4 hours …. somemore go back time i also lost 3 hours ….
2nd time drive car kena saman … fuck fuck …. this one i 1st time kena saman ….
normally highway i speed 140kn/h also no police saman … then today kena saman …. really suck ….

wah Ampang fast food’s service is suck …. fuck them …. i order mcdonald around 5 pm but after 7 pm i haven get my order … then i call to them …. u know wat they say ???? they say because of raining they can’t send to me and forget my order ???? fuck them …. if can’t send to me at least can inform me early ?? fuck scold them also no use … then 8.30pm i order my pizza …. this time the rain also stop …. then 9.50 pm i haven get my pizza … wah really fuck … i m damn hungry …. around my area here can’t find any restaurant or mamak stall …. fuck i really hungry … can u imaging i haven eat since morning until night ??? then i call pizza hut ??? they wan me to wait another half n hour ….. fuck i got no choice …. then wait loh .. when the pizza came, the rider don’t small change to give me …. fuck ??? what the hell ???? then wat to do ??? give him extra few dolar loh …. fuck what kind of service is that ???? say pizza hut is the best service in malaysia ??? fuck them …. late also did’t apologize …. they did’t make sure their customer got get the order o not ??? for me US pizza is still the best …. the pizza really delicious compare to pizza hut n domino pizza …. fuck after eat 1 regular pizza, bread stix, n creamy carbonala …. i still feel hungry …. maybe i haven eat for more than 12 hours … damn it …..

haiz …. so sien …. this year CNY i give more ang pau but i receive less ang pau ….
so sien …. i go for interview but who know …. they all dun wan take me ….
i thought after take bonus i wan resign …. but …. haiz …. need to wait until i get new job ….
so sien …. why this year everything look like again my will ….
when i told my colleague tat my interview fail … u know wat they say ???? they say good loh n ask me to stay in college n dun need find other job ???? fuk them ….. stay in college ???? hell no ….. who can survive with RM 773 per month ??? i need to pay rental for RM 200 n insurance RM 200 …. half of my salary is gone …. i where got money to save …. somemore i where got money to buy car ??????
fuk i work in tarc i really can’t save money ????? every end of the month, i dun hv enough money to spent. fuk tarc ….. me 1 person do double job but they pay my salary so low …. fuk them …. fuk tarc …..
now i js realise tat money is so important for today world …. really is we dun hv money we can’t do anything ….
fuk damn sien …. dunno wan to do wat ????

for those who wan work in tar college better think twice … really need to think twice … cos tar college is not good place to show our talents … tar college management is suck … somemore most of the staff attitude very bad … all those admin n exam staff their attitude very bad n terrible … specially the shorty in exam department … when u ask question she always ask u to refer the notice board … when u ask second time, then she will show her unhappy face … so stupid … exam deaprtment head also the same, her work always ask other department plp to help them to finish her work … then wat she doing ???? she can go to shopping n after 3 hours js come back … when u did’t finish her work then she ll scold u like hell… then she ll put all blame to u … can u imaging or not ??? ask plp do her work then if we did’t finish it, she ll blame us … computer lab even worst ??? me one person need to do 2 person work … during school break i m the only one who need to repair, cleaning, maintain, install the software for more than 120 pc …. then wat the other computer lab staff doing ???? 3 lab staff incharge 36 pc … then after 2 month also can’t finish it … me alone only need to use less a month to maintain, repair, cleaning n install software for more than 120 pcs … can u imaging o not when u alone do all this n yr colleague js sitting in the office chit chat n lepak there … they never offer help ??? really fuk them all … bloddy hell … when some hardware missing in lab, then all the staff will blame me … even the head of college also blame me … say i did’t take serious of my work ??? can u imaging o not, when u do so much hard work no plp appeciate u but blame u because small thing ??? i really can’t stand it … all praise go to those lazy, bloddy hell, n fucker … those hardworking staff ??? all ignore by the head …. the college management also very stupid … their management really lousy … u know i already work here for more than 1 n the half years … but my salary only increase RM 50 … i do 2 plp job but i still get the same payment with those fucker n lazy colleague … can u imaging tat ??? so for those second year student tat wan work in tar collegefor coming MAY … please please think twice …

arrrr …. shit the main road go back to malacca already flood … now i can’t go thru the road … they say the road very dangerous …. i dun wan celebrate x’mas in segamat … so lonely and dun hv any special activity here …. somemore dun hv x’mas mood or spirit in segamat … maybe because segamat is Kampung place tat’s y can’t see x’mas decoration or x’mas song playing in shopping centre … so lame here …. today i go town to help plp how still trap in flood … really pitty them … public n BSN bank their mirror fall into pieces … i can’t draw out the money cos ATM machine also out of service bacause of flood …. at town area u can’t see single car …. cos the car already fill by water …. so sien loh … now so tired …. helping the whole day ….